You can't stop
You feel like you can't stop binge-eating. Every time you screw up your diet, eat something “processed” or “fattening,” or just have a sh*tty day, you lose all control and end up eating every sweet, salty, snack-y, carb-y thing you can get your hands on.
You feel guilty
You feel guilty every time you eat. "I shouldn't eat that" and "I shouldn't have eaten that" are normal thoughts for you. You hate yourself and you wonder what the hell is wrong with you. You can’t understand how other people eat so normally.
You hate your body
Every time you look in the mirror, you immediately identify every body party you hate and fantasize about what you’ll look like when you finally lose the weight. You wait to buy clothes you like until that magical day you’re skinny and look good in everything. Until then, you hate the clothes you can fit into and you hate the way your body looks in them.
You criticize yourself
You think you’re bad because you can’t get your eating “right.” You don’t like yourself, and you’re not surprised if no one else is interested in you, either. You think the more weight you lose, the more attractive you'll be, and you're afraid that until then, no one will love you with the body you've got.